Everone here is so warm, I'm over welmed by all the positive energy everone has sent. I can't thank you all more.  My prayers are that the Goddes will cut us a brake soon. I have felt that we are being put through a test to see how stong we are together. I think we're passing it. Will the help of all my friends, I truely believe that we will get through this too.

Thanks again, Blessed be

Marni

The summer is going good, my husbands neck surgery went well. And the kids are have a ton of fun. Thursday was NOT fun. We were eatting dinner when my husband started falling asleep. Or so I thought. He became unresponcive, shacking, drulling, and swelting. I finall ycall an ambulance.  When they arrived, he did'nt have a pulse. It came back fast, but he did'nt come out of it until 3: 30 the next morning in the hospital. They think he had a ceigure. The kids and I where tarrified. The Doctor said that he most likely had a bad fentanl patch and got the whole 75mlgs in one day. That was broght this on. We are now looking into how we can get him off this nasty patch as soon as we can. I am not ready to be a widow. And the kids really need thier Dad.

He keeps saying that he does'nt rememberanything except sitting down to eat. He also remeber that dinner was good. The next thing he remembers is waking up in the hospital.

he does'nt like the idea that that is what death is like. I told him that he was just knowcking on the door, hwe did'nt open it. That is why he does'nt remember anything. I'm not sure if it makes him feel any better, but I'm tring.

Hope all is well with all of you. And that you're all enjoying the summer. It's going way to fast. I will try to keep everyone up to date as to what will happen from here on out

Blessed be Marni

Sorry I have'nt loged on in a while. I hope everyone had a blessed Solctise. I 've been spending a lot of time outside playing with my kids. Yesterday we went to the pool and had a ton of fun. Our pool has decided not to stay inflated. Summer has finally decided to stay in Minnesota. We have had continual 80 degree weather. I love the warmth. My husband is healling well. His incision sight is'nt really big, so most people don't even see it. Has soon as it heals completely, he will get a tattoo over it. More for his confurt then because it draws attention.

I think things are going to get better for us this summer. I just have a good feeling. If what I'm feeling is right, we won't be broke by the second week of the month.

I hope everyone is have as good of summer that I am. I will try to connect more. But don't be mad if you don't see me fo awhile. We just love to be outside and acctive, and I don't have a laptop. Nomatter how much I would love one,

Blessed be for now

Well, my husabnd went into surgery today. He had two vertabra replced with some type of block matterial, and then fussed with a titaitum plate. Because he suffered a staff infection the last surgery. The Doctors started him on antibiotics before surgery and continued them during and after. With any luck, he won't get another one. I don't think he will. My younger daughter is so sencitive, that she has'nt been able to sllep all weekend. I think she's an empath like me. I'll have to work harded with her so that she can control it better. Of course, she is only 7. She was so scared all day. When I told her that everything was ok, and she got the chance to talk to her Daddy. She realxed and was able to play.

Rick comes home tomorrow, My only hope is that this has worked, and he does'nt have any omre pain in his neck. ( Except for me and the kids). We will know if everything is ok in about 4-6 weeks. That was how long it took the last time before we knew that something was wrong. I really don't thing we will have any trouble. I would be nice if we could get some positive energy sent our way though :)

Well, I think I'm going to go to bed.  I can't wait to see him and the sooner I get some sleep, the sooner he'll be home.

Blessed be

How does someone stay in a good mood when the one you love can't find the energy to smile? My husband has been depressed for about a month now, last night he finally decided to go see him tharopist. But his problem can;t be cured by meds and talking. He's disabled, his body is falling apart but he looks like he could lift a car. He can't work because of his back and neck, we have little to no money because disablity does'nt pay enough to live. And I can't work out side the house because he needs me home to care for him and the kids.

I try to keep my mood positive, but I have a braking point too. The sun and warmer weather is helping. Mother nature always knows what her childern need. I have to buy new clothes because the ones I have are to big, so that helps too. I have gone down 6 sizes to a year. I'm very proudof myself. And of course so is my husband. He thinks I'm sexy no matter what I look like, but I'm starting to look like the 18 yrold he fell inlove with.

We so need somethign good to happen soon, I don't know how much more he can handle. I pray the Goddes will smile on him so that he can find happiness in his heart again soon.

I now have to brake up a fight between my two youngest.

Blessed be